FORWARD
Here we go again.  All these thoughts, ideas, desires, needs, yet no movement.
Sucks when you disappoint yourself.  How can a person want so much, yet do nothing?  How could the same person once jump out on faith and do well, but is now afraid to step out to the ledge?
Deep sigh.  And pout.

FORWARD

Here we go again.  All these thoughts, ideas, desires, needs, yet no movement.

Sucks when you disappoint yourself.  How can a person want so much, yet do nothing?  How could the same person once jump out on faith and do well, but is now afraid to step out to the ledge?

Deep sigh.  And pout.

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FALSIFIED
Even the most educated can be the most ignorant.  We are programmed to believe that those with multiple degrees are beyond intelligence in comparisons to those without.  Society constantly feeds us falsified ideas on what and how things should be to standards, not really generous or inclusive.
I commend and applaud those with the diplomas; but do not discredit the intellect and wisdom that can come from those without.  Education is the key to a bright future, but education can be obtained from more than just an ivy league school.  
It’s experiences, flexibility, growth, and belief in self.  I learn from everyone I meet, including children, and everyone has something to teach.  If we would all just listen to each other, we could learn so much.

FALSIFIED

Even the most educated can be the most ignorant.  We are programmed to believe that those with multiple degrees are beyond intelligence in comparisons to those without.  Society constantly feeds us falsified ideas on what and how things should be to standards, not really generous or inclusive.

I commend and applaud those with the diplomas; but do not discredit the intellect and wisdom that can come from those without.  Education is the key to a bright future, but education can be obtained from more than just an ivy league school.  

It’s experiences, flexibility, growth, and belief in self.  I learn from everyone I meet, including children, and everyone has something to teach.  If we would all just listen to each other, we could learn so much.

(Source: holaaitsshann)

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FOSTER

I plan and hope to adopt when I begin building my family. So many children need a loving parent, stable foundation, and a place to call home. I want to provide that love and happiness in a child’s life.

I spent a good part of my walk this morning, going back and forth about the right time to foster and adopt. Before or after I have kids?

If I adopt first, that child gets to really feel the love of a parent, and feels established in the family. If I adopt after, they join the family. Which is easier? Better? Smarter?

As I think about the future, I’m excited about the guy in my life, and his desire to adopt as well. It means the world to know and have someone whose heart is as open to give love and share their world with a child. I hope, and look forward to doing this together.

Of the many reasons my ex and I ended, one of our biggest arguments was adoption. He grew up with multiple foster kids in his home, and is anti adoption. I would’ve thought he would be that much more for, seeing how badly the system can effect children. But I understand.

No matter what, regardless of my age or marital status, I will adopt. I will be a mother. I will love and give my life for the growth and happiness of a young heart, mind, and soul. Smiling, overwhelmingly, just thinking about it.

FLOURIDE

Time to schedule a cleaning. Is been awhile, despite all the visits to the ortho. At least my expensive mouth wash has fluoride in it to help with preservation.

I’ve been staring at people’s teeth lately like a psycho. Can really see who goes regularly, who brushes twice a day, and who doesn’t care.

I can’t spend all this money and not take care of my teeth. For anyone that has paid good money to correct their teeth or dental hygiene, keep up with your investment.

FLOWERS

Enjoying the moment, and breathing in the amazing natural scents of my morning walk, I decided to hand pick an arrangement.  It’s been awhile since I’ve had fresh flowers in the house.  I had to seize the opportunity.

It’s rather cute.  Smells awesome, looks great, makes me smile. I grabbed the purple rose first.  The smell literally made me stop and breathe it in.  So delicately romantic.  The other two just kind of caught my eye, and I had to have.

Now that they are here, and I love them, and can smell them everywhere I go, I want more.  Thinking all white next week.  Maybe really pretty, and soft.

FLOWERS

Enjoying the moment, and breathing in the amazing natural scents of my morning walk, I decided to hand pick an arrangement. It’s been awhile since I’ve had fresh flowers in the house. I had to seize the opportunity.

It’s rather cute. Smells awesome, looks great, makes me smile. I grabbed the purple rose first. The smell literally made me stop and breathe it in. So delicately romantic. The other two just kind of caught my eye, and I had to have.

Now that they are here, and I love them, and can smell them everywhere I go, I want more. Thinking all white next week. Maybe really pretty, and soft.

FRIDA

Dear Frida,

I saw your name on the paper for housekeeping. Quick question. Do you really clean? Or just tell the managers that you do?

You swept, restocked towels, remade the bed I made, took out the trash, but did you clean anything? You couldn’t have mopped or cleaned any surfaces. I didn’t want service, but you insisted. Despite my do not disturb sign and yelling “no, thank you” at the door.

You told me it would take you 30 minutes to clean the room, but you were done in 10. Thank you for your service, but I think I’m good for the duration of my stay.

Best,

Me

FIVE

Just finished Harry Potter, book four, The Goblet of Fire. Whoa. That was heavy. And dark.

The crazy thing is I’ve seen the movies, but years ago. Certain things I remembered, and I know a lot was left out from the book, but whoa!

I was smart enough to bring book five with me on this trip, so I can move right into the next adventure. I’m so nervous!

FATE

Woke up feeling great. Sun was shining. I just knew it was going to be the best day ever…

I was asked to travel to San Diego for a conference for four days. Having just returned from San Jose last week, I couldn’t imagine being away from my dog again for three plus days. So I figured I’d find a hotel that would allow Big Coopie. And I did!

Secured the hotel through our company travel booking page, and set off with Coop in tow. Perfect location in relations to several parks to take Coop, and the hotel where the actual conference would take place.

Woke up the first day, had an amazing morning adventure at the marina with Coop. Got back, put on my new black dress that looks even better on me now (thanks lent), and set out to start my day. The hotel desk flagged me down. Apparently my company only secured the reservation, did not pay for the hotel. They couldn’t do it online, and refused to fax a copy of the credit card to the hotel, so it just didn’t get paid. Therefore, I had to cough up the funds.

Thank the Lord that I just babysat and kept two dogs, so I actually had a little extra in my account. Otherwise, I would’ve been short. I had plans for that extra cash during this trip and the weekend, that are now postponed until…well, more money comes my way.

I shook it off, could always be worse, and headed to work. Met some amazing young people, and had a great workshop. Feeling much better, I said in your face devil because I still had a good day…until I got to my car. The parking pass had expired by a few minutes and a $65 ticket was waiting for me on my dashboard. Great!

I reset my mind and moved on. With a new budget for this trip, I grabbed a quick dinner and headed to the hotel. Got all settled in, sat down to eat, and somehow managed to spill most of my food on the bed. I chose not to react, just cleaned it up and moved on. Until I decided to check emails and do a little work before bed, but the Internet wouldn’t connect! Thanks Universe.

Feeling a tad defeated, I took a deep breath, and just moved on. I picked up my book - I’m reading the Harry Potter series and on book four - and read myself to sleep.

Somethings we can’t control. But, we can choose how we respond. Usually I would pout and whine. Instead, I just let it go. Felt better than being upset.

Starting day two now. Wish me luck.

FOREVERAs the week of a friend’s would be anniversary approaches, I can’t help but think about what went wrong.  They were the happiest couple, the best of friends, for years, but just like that its over.  Of all the people I know, I never saw these two ending.From the outside, they just seemed so happy.  They knew each other inside and out, shared everything, were so honest and open.  But it ended.  They both admit they still have love for each other, but the tie is broken.  Both are dating again, saying they now need someone who…and listed various reasons.  Interesting.I thought they were that forever love.  But maybe it’s just more than that.  People say marriage is a job, you have to work at it.  So is it about needing that right someone, that you will do anything for, despite the bad times, and work hard to protect the bind?  Or just needing someone to satisfy your needs and goals at that time?I don’t want an expiration date. No exit plan necessary.  I want the person I need to be the best me.  I want the person I need whom I love, and dangerously loves me in return.  I want the person that I need.

FOREVER

As the week of a friend’s would be anniversary approaches, I can’t help but think about what went wrong. They were the happiest couple, the best of friends, for years, but just like that its over. Of all the people I know, I never saw these two ending.

From the outside, they just seemed so happy. They knew each other inside and out, shared everything, were so honest and open. But it ended. They both admit they still have love for each other, but the tie is broken.

Both are dating again, saying they now need someone who…and listed various reasons. Interesting.

I thought they were that forever love. But maybe it’s just more than that. People say marriage is a job, you have to work at it. So is it about needing that right someone, that you will do anything for, despite the bad times, and work hard to protect the bind? Or just needing someone to satisfy your needs and goals at that time?

I don’t want an expiration date. No exit plan necessary. I want the person I need to be the best me. I want the person I need whom I love, and dangerously loves me in return. I want the person that I need.

(Source: hqlines)

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FRICTION

A simple u-turn. That was the goal. Instead, I buried my car in the sand at Dockweiler Beach!

Once we realized the car was stuck, we got out and started digging. A group of guys approached us, and suggested we use the car mats to make the process of getting out easier. Failed.

Another group of guys joined us, told us that everything we were doing was wrong, and we all continued to dig out the tires. This group’s theory was to rock the car back and forth while pushing. One guy said there were 30 in his party that could help push, but there wasnt enough car for 30 people to push. Failed.

A third group joined and also told us we weren’t doing it right. They brought along some lumber. We put it behind the tires, dug out more sand, and tried again. Failed.

So now with almost 20 people surrounding the car, digging, pushing, rocking, strategizing and debating logic, it was starting to seem impossible. Along came two older men, wiser rather, who suggested we release some of the air in the tire for traction and friction. We tried everything else, so why not.

We dug a little more, put the lumber in place, released some air from the tires, put the car mats behind the lumber, I got behind the wheel of the car, put it in reverse, hit the gas slowly, and walla! My car was freed from the sand trap I lodged it into. I thanked everyone for their amazing humanity, and all went back to normal on the beach.

I was with my two bffs, and we laughed from the moment we realized the truck was stuck, until…still laughing! My luck, my life.