FRECKLES

Take a minute. Gorgeous.

Wish I could call the spots on my face freckles. Oh breakout wars - you won!

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FOOD

Lent is over.  Thank you Lord for your unconditional love and the many sacrifices for our lives.  Now it’s time to eat!  

Except, I am so hungry I don’t know what to eat.  I want everything.

Planning out Easter dinner should have been easy, but I scanned recipe books for days trying to develop the perfect menu.  Again, I want everything.  Everything!

If only I had house elves,  They could make me anything I wanted in no time.  I wouldn’t even have to grocery shop!

Wishful thinking.

FREQUENT
Did you forget to do something this evening?  Last evening?  The other day?  It’s becoming more frequent.
I know you are busy, but if it’s important, you make time.  You used to, and had way more on your plate.
It’s all good.  Whatever.  Just practice what you preach.  Don’t speak on what I do, and then return the favor times multiple times a week.
You know with me, it’s the little things.  Good night.

FREQUENT

Did you forget to do something this evening?  Last evening?  The other day?  It’s becoming more frequent.

I know you are busy, but if it’s important, you make time.  You used to, and had way more on your plate.

It’s all good.  Whatever.  Just practice what you preach.  Don’t speak on what I do, and then return the favor times multiple times a week.

You know with me, it’s the little things.  Good night.

FORGIVE
I must be a man.  You hurt me or anyone I love, I have a hard time forgiving you.  Even when those loved ones forgive, I am still bitter.
It takes too long for me to let go.  I am really working on this.  It’s not healthy, nor Christian, nor worth my time to hold such feelings and animosity towards another person.
Even if I were more lady like in this matter and were quick to forgive, I wouldn’t want to be the one always dangling that something over someone else’s head.  That seems to require a lot more effort and pent up feelings, than just disregarding and restricting time with that person.
Guess that means, neither is better.  Forgive and let go.

FORGIVE

I must be a man.  You hurt me or anyone I love, I have a hard time forgiving you.  Even when those loved ones forgive, I am still bitter.

It takes too long for me to let go.  I am really working on this.  It’s not healthy, nor Christian, nor worth my time to hold such feelings and animosity towards another person.

Even if I were more lady like in this matter and were quick to forgive, I wouldn’t want to be the one always dangling that something over someone else’s head.  That seems to require a lot more effort and pent up feelings, than just disregarding and restricting time with that person.

Guess that means, neither is better.  Forgive and let go.

FACIA

Back in the day, and I mean 5-6 years ago, I took my car to the wash weekly to keep the black shining bright. In a city where it rarely rains, cars should be clean. Right?

Well, once I realized the extent of this weekly financial investment, I cut back to once a month. You would think as much as I’m in my car now, I would keep to the once a month regime for self and maintenance. Nope.

My car, my poor Sam.2, is filthy. Inside and out. From traveling, dogs, construction, sand traps, and etc. the dashboard is the worse. You can see dust, pollen, sand, dog hair, all activity within the last two months. It’s gross, and yet I’ve done nothing about it.

The car wash I used to go to years ago had a great deal, of $35 for a full wash, interior detail, and mini wax. The place closer to me now has the same package for $50. I’m not paying that. And it’s $80 to have the car shampooed. I need that more than anything. Oy.

First world problems.

FORWARD
Here we go again.  All these thoughts, ideas, desires, needs, yet no movement.
Sucks when you disappoint yourself.  How can a person want so much, yet do nothing?  How could the same person once jump out on faith and do well, but is now afraid to step out to the ledge?
Deep sigh.  And pout.

FORWARD

Here we go again.  All these thoughts, ideas, desires, needs, yet no movement.

Sucks when you disappoint yourself.  How can a person want so much, yet do nothing?  How could the same person once jump out on faith and do well, but is now afraid to step out to the ledge?

Deep sigh.  And pout.

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FALSIFIED
Even the most educated can be the most ignorant.  We are programmed to believe that those with multiple degrees are beyond intelligence in comparisons to those without.  Society constantly feeds us falsified ideas on what and how things should be to standards, not really generous or inclusive.
I commend and applaud those with the diplomas; but do not discredit the intellect and wisdom that can come from those without.  Education is the key to a bright future, but education can be obtained from more than just an ivy league school.  
It’s experiences, flexibility, growth, and belief in self.  I learn from everyone I meet, including children, and everyone has something to teach.  If we would all just listen to each other, we could learn so much.

FALSIFIED

Even the most educated can be the most ignorant.  We are programmed to believe that those with multiple degrees are beyond intelligence in comparisons to those without.  Society constantly feeds us falsified ideas on what and how things should be to standards, not really generous or inclusive.

I commend and applaud those with the diplomas; but do not discredit the intellect and wisdom that can come from those without.  Education is the key to a bright future, but education can be obtained from more than just an ivy league school.  

It’s experiences, flexibility, growth, and belief in self.  I learn from everyone I meet, including children, and everyone has something to teach.  If we would all just listen to each other, we could learn so much.

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FOSTER

I plan and hope to adopt when I begin building my family. So many children need a loving parent, stable foundation, and a place to call home. I want to provide that love and happiness in a child’s life.

I spent a good part of my walk this morning, going back and forth about the right time to foster and adopt. Before or after I have kids?

If I adopt first, that child gets to really feel the love of a parent, and feels established in the family. If I adopt after, they join the family. Which is easier? Better? Smarter?

As I think about the future, I’m excited about the guy in my life, and his desire to adopt as well. It means the world to know and have someone whose heart is as open to give love and share their world with a child. I hope, and look forward to doing this together.

Of the many reasons my ex and I ended, one of our biggest arguments was adoption. He grew up with multiple foster kids in his home, and is anti adoption. I would’ve thought he would be that much more for, seeing how badly the system can effect children. But I understand.

No matter what, regardless of my age or marital status, I will adopt. I will be a mother. I will love and give my life for the growth and happiness of a young heart, mind, and soul. Smiling, overwhelmingly, just thinking about it.

FLOURIDE

Time to schedule a cleaning. Is been awhile, despite all the visits to the ortho. At least my expensive mouth wash has fluoride in it to help with preservation.

I’ve been staring at people’s teeth lately like a psycho. Can really see who goes regularly, who brushes twice a day, and who doesn’t care.

I can’t spend all this money and not take care of my teeth. For anyone that has paid good money to correct their teeth or dental hygiene, keep up with your investment.

FLOWERS

Enjoying the moment, and breathing in the amazing natural scents of my morning walk, I decided to hand pick an arrangement.  It’s been awhile since I’ve had fresh flowers in the house.  I had to seize the opportunity.

It’s rather cute.  Smells awesome, looks great, makes me smile. I grabbed the purple rose first.  The smell literally made me stop and breathe it in.  So delicately romantic.  The other two just kind of caught my eye, and I had to have.

Now that they are here, and I love them, and can smell them everywhere I go, I want more.  Thinking all white next week.  Maybe really pretty, and soft.

FLOWERS

Enjoying the moment, and breathing in the amazing natural scents of my morning walk, I decided to hand pick an arrangement. It’s been awhile since I’ve had fresh flowers in the house. I had to seize the opportunity.

It’s rather cute. Smells awesome, looks great, makes me smile. I grabbed the purple rose first. The smell literally made me stop and breathe it in. So delicately romantic. The other two just kind of caught my eye, and I had to have.

Now that they are here, and I love them, and can smell them everywhere I go, I want more. Thinking all white next week. Maybe really pretty, and soft.